huh...

hmmm...im not gonna post a long blog today..so dun worry..hmm..today...my day is not good..as always...now,i cant stop blaming myself for being da same old me (ever since i got into uni) until now dat i refused to change...i really wanna try n change..but things cant change in one nite..it takes time..aih..same old thing...hmm..anyway..i passed up my mc...results wil b comin out on friday..scared...im wondering wat i should do it they rejected my mc..aiih...i really wanna go n sleep n stop thinkin abt wat had happened today n start a new one tmr..well...let me finish a lil bit more then probably i'll end it shortly..anyway,i came back to my house...ate alil bit n went for a nap since i cant online..somethin wrong wit da stupid line..made me faddup..really couldnt stand..pay so much n yet i hv to suffer wit all these..anyway,after wakin up..i felt very lonely again..i dun feel it strange bcoz u wanna know y?coz im having those feelin every single nite..or sometimes,daytime too..it seemed dat ive lost everyone...da feelin of it is horrible...its not wat i wanna feel...i dun think anyone would lik to hv a feel of dat...trust me..i cry to myself to bed almost every single of da nite..how scary is dat?some ppl really dun understand..i guess dat is y everyone hv to go thru some of some rite?well,i would said im da unluckiest one.. :) i neva wanna judge it anymore..tired of it...no one will understand da pain of it..well..i guess da same thing will happen to me before goin to bed tonite huh.. :) well,i guess this will b d end of this journey..
p/s:i love my darlings~~